Starting once again-a new hobby, new project, or a career, is often a stage filled with a mix of emotions. Starting a blog (this blog) again-scares me.
One day, I am fired up in my own passion ready to tackle the world. Some days, I am defeated, unsure and feeling unworthy.
What is hard about starting again? Why do we procrastinate? Why each time I write, there is a sense of resistance around the thought of myself sharing and expressing myself with potentially a lot of people across the world?
What’s Stopping Us?
For most of us, I like to think that starting once again can be difficult not because of our inabilities- but because of our clinging to perfection. Put simply- we are afraid to suck.
And this comes in many forms. I am overwhelmed by the fact that I can be as real as I am. You see, I have always wanted a lifestyle blog. My other blog started out as one but somewhere along the way- it morphed and gave birth to an unexpected passion- baking.
And a lifestyle blog, at the back of mind- is a kind of a missed dream. A failed plan. A thing that is just not for me. But here I am once again. There is just this itch, what if I try once again? But still- there is something about the realness of a “lifestyle” that scares me. There is something about the “failed” first time that holds me back. And I think it is both realness and the perceived superficiality of lifestyle blogging that keeps me getting stuck.
But the lifestyle blogs I adore…they just write away their heart and minds. They write about the things they love whether its their latest purchase or latest heart ache. And they never , ever once appeared to me as superficial.
The Art Of Being Yourself
This week I watched a TED talk of a remarkable woman named Caroline McHugh. In her talk titled The Art Of Being Yourself, she shares that our job is not to be like the magnificent, famous and successful people that we all adore, our job is to become as different from them as possible. She further inspires with a slogan which reads There is a YOU shaped hole in the Universe. Now I cannot replicate the impact she had on me on you, but the talk just left in awe. If you haven’t yet, I highly suggest you watch it.
Aren’t most of us afraid to be ourselves? To show what we really want for fear of being different? Does not conformity kills our individuality in some way? After watching the talk I realized what those lifestyle blogs have in common- the writers behind them are not afraid to be themselves.
- They don’t aim to be write the best novel, or a masterpiece.
- They don’t write to change the world.
- They don’t claim to be the best. They just come as they are.
- They share their joy and that shines through in their work.
So if you are reading this and you are like me- prancing back and forth between confidence and self doubt of starting again, then it may be worth considering that you do not have to be perfect- you just have to be you.
Let doing what you love be the alignment. There is beauty in being yourself- a thing that is pretty hard to fake. Let that be reason enough. to start again.