Enjoying the Now

What hinders you from enjoying the now? I do not know if it’s because of hormones, or my mid age, the weather or maybe the shows I watch, but lately I have been having this kind of feeling – a mix of regret, worry and a bit of panic.

Facing the fact that each of the moments of our life are actually moments that are slipping away.. like sand through my fingers, sends weight to my heart.

My eldest daughter transforming so fast in front of me everyday. How do I ever begin to tell anyone that it seems like I was just changing her diapers not long ago? How can I ever tell anyone that I am ready to re-live those years, when she was young and cuddly. When she was still a baby?

The aging of beloved parents. Oh how I wish they’d be young as I remember them from when I was a kid. How I wish I could dial a decade back and enjoy them more.

These tender years of having our kids young, cute and chatty.

Our youth. Our strength. Basically everything is governed by the the fact that all things change.

But I try to be grounded in the face of this. I remind myself that this is just a phase. A phase of worrying that has somehow been triggered by some unknown events that I unknowingly absorbed in a negative way. Or maybe, really, just hormones.

I always remind myself that what we have is the Now. .

“Nothing has happened in the past; it happened in the Now. Nothing will ever happen in the future; it will happen in the Now.”
— Eckhart Tolle

“People don’t realize that now is all there ever is; there is no past or future except as memory or anticipation in your mind.”
— Eckhart Tolle

Never mind that time is so fast. It doesn’t change the fact that life is the present. Sit. Still. Be.

The sound of rain drops by my office window while I write this.

My little boy humming songs, reaching me from the other room where he is playing. The sounds of Lego cluttering in his hands.

This is now. And I enjoy every moment of it.

Even though these things slip away, I will know that I was in them, fully awake. Now is all we ever have.

I will try to spend these days in a way that when I look back at the photos of me, my kids and my family, I will now that I have immersed myself in the moment, not worrying about the impermanence of it all.

The Things I Enjoy Lately

Sparking bodies of water on our park and garden visits.

Photos in nature. Spring time. Weekends.

Baking sourdough bread. Enjoying the now means baking sourdough each week! I love toasted sourdough bread that is brushed with garlic or dipped in an olive oil dip.